Some Kind Of Heaven

Just little longer now
Shouldn’t be much longer
Wait, tell me again, what is this about?
I’m having trouble sleeping
I keep thinking my phone’s ringing
I wake in a panic, what’s wrong now?
My nervous system’s acting up
I’m worried it’s forever messed up
Now being awake feels unsafe
Please, help me remember
The voice of my mother
Reminding me everything’s okay
She deeply believed it

Just a little longer
Everything will make sensе
Broken things will be remadе
But what about the meantime?
How do I ignore the signs
That one day, everything I love will fade?
I’m too tired to fight
In a civil war of faith

Just a little longer, God knows
I’m growing impatient, I know
How cliché but I need proof
Radical acceptance
Sure feels like surrender
But I’ve still got so much to prove
I still talk to my mother
I keep saying I’m sorry
The only words that feel like truth
God, I need to believe

Just a little longer
Everything will make sense
Broken things will be remade
There’s some kind of heaven
Just around the corner
And all this pain will be replaced

Just a little longer
Everything will make sense
Broken things will be remade
There’s some kind of heaven
Just around the corner
And all this pain will be replaced

With unimaginable grace
With unimaginable grace

After all, she was usually right