Inexplicable

Inexplicably high
Inexplicably low
I think I know what I want but I don't know where to go
And all the while it seems that I'm living in my dreams
I'm not in the now
No, I'm not in the now

When I was four
I raised my finger to a moving car
It crashed so I assumed I had a superpower
I didn't raise that finger until I was nine
When a schoolboy attacked for the twenty-fifth time
Down I went, my index still up
So convinced that he would just drop
Powerless to make it stop
Powerless to make it stop

Inexplicably high
Inexplicably low
I think I know what I want but I don't know where to go
And all the while it seems that I'm living in my dreams
I'm not in the now
No, I'm not in the now

At nineteen
I still just about believed in God
I guess that I was pretty late to shake it off
Faulty magic whispered to the man who can mend
I tricked myself in thinking he could cure my best friend
Two weeks in, his insides gave up
If drugs can't help, why would words bring him luck?
Powerless to make it stop
Powerless to make it stop

Inexplicably high
Inexplicably low
I think I know what I want but I don't know where to go
And all the while it seems that I'm living in my dreams
I'm not in the now
No, I'm not in the now

Now my hands are pulling at the donkey's reins
I feel I've done the wrong route down a dusty lane
The grass could have been greener down the first road I took
I'd give half my happiness just for one look
My lust to win is eating me up
A game I can't win up against my own clock
And powerless to make it stop
Powerless to make it stop

Inexplicably high
Inexplicably low
I think I know what I want but I don't know where to go
And all the while it seems that I'm living in my dreams
I'm not in the now (not in the now)
No, I'm not in the now

Inexplicably high
Inexplicably low
I think I know what I want but I don't know where to go
And all the while it seems that I'm living in my dreams
I'm not in the now
No, I'm not in the now

Inexplicably high
Inexplicably low
I think I know what I want but I don't know where to go
And all the while it seems that I'm living in my dreams
I'm not in the now
No, I'm not in the now