I Despise You

So I play along and I stand aside
And I turn away, try not to collide
With the strength to fear
Am I paranoid?
‘Cause it doesn’t feel like I’m yet destroyed
And I cannot move but I want to leave
Away from simple goals I can never achieve
Now you look to me
But what is your plan?
Is it good enough? What am I waiting for?
For gods? For escape?
Or just a way to guide me out?
Of this, of here?
Still I just want to kill them all

But all that my hell comprises
Benevolent compromises
And I really despise you
Bad enough not to fuck it up
What’s with your cliched surprises?
And where is your plain advice right now?
Oh, I really despise you
Bad enough not to fuck it up

And I watch my steps, creeping carefully
Make my frozen heart beat in your frequency
What’s the next move you’ll make?
I’m left in the dark
As if all the weight will become a spark
To ignite a flame that could burn them down
And no backup left when I turn around
It’s not all on me, but my mind is set
And it brought us here
To the place where it all commenced
No gods, no escape
And not a way to lead us out
Of this, of here
Now I just want to kill them all