Without You

I know that you loved me a lot
I just never quite knew why that was
So afraid that I was not enough
That it turns out I was not enough

Look, I still drink sometimes when I'm down
But I quit smoking cigs, aren't you proud?
Look, I know that you don't give a shit
But I'm comforted

'Cause it still doesn't feel like you're gone
And my heart will not let me move on
Now I wish I had chosen my words
You were doing okay, how you were

Hope you're doing okay while I hurt
(Doing okay, doing okay while I hurt)

And I just want you to know
That the last time I drove you home
Was the last time I felt okay inside
And when you're not here in my car
I can't help but pretend that you are
But I'm not okay, and the world is dark without you

(I know that you loved me a lot
I just never quite knew why that was)

I know you've been going through shit
I just wish I could help you through it
When it rains, I still think of your face
On those dark, dark days

When you drove to my apartment after work
'Cause you always put my feelings first
When you cried and I just made it worse
Driving my own hearse

Off the cliff that I built for the view
So that I could sit up there with you
Damn, the water looks colder tonight
Will the water feel colder tonight?

Hope you're doing okay while I hurt
(Doing okay, doing okay)

And I just want you to know
That the last time I drove you home
Was the last time I felt okay inside
And when you're not here in my car
I can't help but pretend that you are
But I'm not okay, and the world is dark without you

I'm still stuck on the first time you laid in my bed
With your legs wrapped around me, your skin on my skin
But I knew you would hurt me, 'cause I knew I'd want you to stay
I'm sorry I pushed you away

Well, I could've told you it's just for the best
If you leave in the morning or right after this
But I knew I would hurt you, 'cause I knew you'd want me to stay
Sometimes it's just better that way

I know that you loved me a lot