Angel In Lothian

When an angel fell somewhere in Lothian
I was only a child, but I trust my eyes
She burnt up like a comet before me
Before I could even say hi
Saw kingdoms come and go in Bernicia
With a space station rattling above my head
And I saw the dead
I saw the dead

Back then, yeah, the door was always open
I'd come and go, back and forth, anytime I need
But I'm needing it more now than ever
'Cause I'm fading away
And I claw at the door every bad night
But somehow it's blocked from thе other side
I claw till my skin comes apart
Until I feel something

And I remember that pain in my mother
Being helpless and feckless and far too young
My brother was spiraling down
He said: Kid it's not me, it's this town
So I rail against that feeling when it comes
I no longer have solitude behind that door
And I know drugs that can hold it
You gotta hold it yourself

I wish an angel fell somewhere in Lothian
She could've fixed all the problems that I cannot fix
But one day I might have kids myself
And hope that I don't fuck them up myself
Hey!

(And I've been here, the door's always open)