If I Hate You

I could face the walk down union street
I could go out with my friends to parties
Maybe even look at other guys
Make it past the door and not feel terrified

I could curse your name
Instead of shouting it out in my sleep
Could stitch myself up every day
But really all I do is bleed

But if I hate you
Maybe I could erase you
Maybe I wouldn't chase you
And I could face the truth
But if I blame you
I won't live with this same bruise
I won't give all my days to you
And I could face the truth but then
I don't know how I'd ever love again

I could start a war with all my friends
Tell them all the ways that you messed with my head
Tell them all the secrets you kept
I could count up all the reasons that I left

I could live with this if
You were a little harder to miss
I could stop seeing your eyes
Every time that I close mine

And I could talk to my mum
About everything you did wrong
Instead, she tries not to hear me cry
Myself to sleep each night

But if I hate you
Maybe I could erase you
Maybe I wouldn't chase you
And I could face the truth
But if I blame you
I won't live with this same bruise
I won't give all my days to you
And I could face the truth but then
I don't know how I'd ever love again

If any anger burned in me
I'd douse myself in gasoline
I'd be aflame, I'd be a woman scorned
But at least the fire would keep me warm

If you hadn't shined so damn bright
I wouldn't be blind without your light
If there were any way not to feel this pain
If I could face the truth, I'd say

That you never broke my heart, you just made me break a smile
And any tears I shed, you were right there to help them dry

If I could hold a grudge like you used to hold my face
At least I'd be holding onto something instead of drifting away
I'm drifting away

But if I hate you
Maybe I could erase you
Maybe I wouldn't chase you
And I could face the truth
But if I blame you
I won't live with this same bruise
I won't give all my days to you
And I could face the truth but then
I don't know how I'd ever love again
(Love again)

Wish I could say you never cared
But you loved me so much, I wouldn't dare
And now I wake to a winter cold
I used to wake in your summer glow
I could say you messed with my head
But I think you put it together again
'Cause I don't think you told a lie
The whole time, whole time you were mine

Wish I could say you never cared
But you loved me so much, I wouldn't dare
And now I wake to a winter cold
I used to wake in your summer glow
I could say you messed with my head
But I think you put it together again
'Cause I don't think you told a lie
The whole time, whole time you were mine