Waiting To Die

I drown my tears in material things
I spent all of my years in front of led screens
I'm probably wastin' my youth, I'd hate to look back on this
When I'm ​old and I'm pissed from all the life that I missed
And I've been fallin' down

I know I've said it before, can't seem to sort it out
I hit my head on the floor and then I pour it out
I make some bad metaphors to help me calm it down
My thoughts are talking loud

And I've been restless, stressed, depressed, mark the checklist
It's just another phase that I'm in
And I don't wanna lie to your face, but my pace has been hectic
I just don't know where to begin, so I'll say this

Life sucks and I'm losing my mind
Can you tell me the time? I'm just waiting to die, yeah
All my songs started soundin' the same
I've been locked in my brain, think I'm goin' insane

I'm manic, dammit, here we go again
I'm so damaged, damn, where the fuck are all my friends at?
Life sucks and I'm losing my mind
Can you tell me the time? I'm just waiting to die

I hold my head up while I'm holdin' my breath
And I'm so fed up with the dread, I'm always watchin' my step
I wish that I could be oblivious like everyone else
They say ignorance is bliss, I really like how that sounds

And I've been crying out
The walls are caving again, can someone pull me out?
I'm feeling trapped in my skin, don't wanna let you down
I'm lost and faded again, I really hate this town
Nothing can save me now

And I've been breaking the silence, the words are better when I scream it
I think I said some things out of line, but know I don't mean it
I promise I'll call you 'cause lately I just feel defeated
I just don't know where to begin, so I'll say this

Life sucks and I'm losing my mind
Can you tell me the time? I'm just waiting to die, yeah
All my songs started soundin' the same
I've been locked in my brain, think I'm goin' insane

I'm manic, dammit, here we go again
I'm so damaged, damn, where the fuck are all my friends at?
Life sucks and I'm losing my mind
Can you tell me the time? I'm just waiting to die