Pretend

I laid in bed all day and waited for the Sun
Praying the rays would be enough to wake me up
I tried to tell myself that I was doing fine
Thought it was normal feeling low most of the time

But something wasn't right, I see it in my eyes
I've gone away again
Now I'm on the outside looking into my own life
But it doesn't feel like mine
I've gone away again
Now I'm on the outside witnessing

There's a stranger in my head
And she's telling me that I don't really know myself
While we work it out, I just pretend

I waited for the voice to tell me what to be
She filled my head with words I thought had come from me
And she sold me stories about fear and disbelief
I bought them all thinking that they might work for me

But something wasn't right, I see it in my eyes
I've gone away again
Now I'm on the outside looking into my own life
But it doesn't feel like mine
I've gone away again
Now I'm on the outside witnessing

There's a stranger in my head (in my head)
And she's telling me that I don't really know myself (know myself)
So while we work it out, I just pretend