Heavy Shit

I've got this window in my house
Knows me better than I know myself
Could probably charge me $150 an
Hour for all the heavy shit I poor out

I get these voices in my brain
Feels like I'm part of a new strain
I get the stubborn stupid and useless
You get the heavy shit I poor out

So here I am trynna figure where it all went wrong
Feel like a ghost in my own damn home
Starting to wonder how I got so numb to this heavy shit I poor out

Bottoming bottles in the mirror when I'm on my own
Feel like I'm lost in my own damn bones
Can someone tell me how I got so numb to this heavy shit I poor out

They tell me: Well this is all part of life you see
But the world keeps circling 'round me
No, can't seem to stop being so hard on myself
Hence all the shit I poor out

Still haven't found what I'm looking for
No, all of these people keep closing doors
They tell me: You can't keep holding all this

Shit to yourself, go find a way to let it poor out
So here I am trynna figure where it all went wrong
Feel like a ghost in my own damn home
Starting to wonder how I got so numb to this heavy shit I poor out

Bottoming bottles in the mirror when I'm on my own
Feel like I'm lost in my own damn bones
Can someone tell me how I got so numb to this heavy shit I poor out

So here I am
So here I am like a ghost in my own home again
With this heavy shit I poor out
So come on let it poor out
All the heavy shit I poor out
Let it poor out
All the heavy shit I poor out

So here I am trynna figure where it all went wrong
Feel like a ghost in my own damn home
Starting to wonder how I got so numb to this heavy shit I poor out

Bottoming bottles in the mirror when I'm on my own
Feel like I'm lost in my own damn bones
Can someone tell me how I got so numb to this heavy shit I poor out

So here I am
So here I am
So here I am
Can someone tell me how I got so numb to this heavy shit I poor out

So here I am
So here I am
So here I am
Can someone tell me how I got so numb to this heavy shit I poor out