Anxiety

On the surface, everything's just fine
But nervous doesn't describe what's going on behind these eyes
It's just too easy to fake a smile
But you got my heartbeat on repeat
Going 'bout a hundred thousand miles

My mind's racing but I could never out run you
You're two steps ahead while I'm tripping over my shoes

A-n-x-i-e-t-y
No matter how hard I try, you will never leave
Yeah, yeah
H-a-t-e-y-o-u
And all the stupid things you do
I give in so easily
You get the best of me
You get the best of me

I wish I could just let you go
But the truth is, you are all I've ever known
You're an infection, a medicine just numbs my brain
I'm doing anything and everything to feel normal again
What's normal again?

'Cause my mind's racing but I could never out run you
You're two steps ahead while I'm tripping over my shoes
My mind's racing but I could never out run you
Playing games with me that I will always lose

A-n-x-i-e-t-y
No matter how hard I try, you will never leave
Yeah, yeah
H-a-t-e-y-o-u
And all the stupid things you do
I give in so easily
You get the best of me
You get the best of me

It's crazy, my thoughts start racing
And my mind erasing everything I knew
It's just pills and therapy bills
Just to keep me away from you
And it works for a little while, bullshit smiles
But I'm just walk through the motions
Either that, or losing track of my emotions
4AM panic attacks
Taking red eyes back home
I feel by myself but with you, I'm never alone
Damn

A-n-x-i-e-t-y
No matter how hard I try, you will never leave