Wide Awake

I feel the cold setting in,
I feel the goosebumps all over my skin,
I start to fear the worse, I'm feeling so low,
I shouldn't feel like this in my own home.

Feels like my teeth are falling out,
From all the giberish that's been pouring out my mouth,
What was i thinking? What was i doing with that milf?
My chin is exhausted, man it was time for filth.

And it's not a good way to start the day,
I know it's done me no good,
I don't wanna face the world, but i know that i should.
Tell myself I wont do it again, but i know i will be
lying in my bed my thoughts racing.
Like they always have been.
Like they always will be.
Like they always have been.
Like they always will be.

And i feel that chill back in the air,
Though i can't see no one, i feel their stare,
They've sussed out my name, know everything I've done.
And this could be our secret, if they just don't tell no one

And it's not a good way to start the day,
I know it's done me no good,
I don't wanna face the world, but i know that i should.
Tell myself I wont do it again, but i know i will be
lying in my bed my thoughts racing.
Like they always have been.
Like they always will be.
Like they always have been.
Like they always will be.

And the suns gone down and I'd love it to rise,
Lets me know that I've survived.
Every noise runs down my spine.
Keep the clock to check the time.
I need to talk, need conversation,
Rack my brain for explanations,
Need you here just holding me,
Shield me so they'll leave me be.
But that's the way I've always been,
And that's the way I'll always be.
And there's no fucking change in me.
Cause that's the way I'll always be.

And it's not a good way to start the day,
I know it's done me no good,
I don't wanna face the world, but i know that i should.
Tell myself I wont do it again, but i know i will be
lying in my bed my thoughts racing.
Like they always have been.
Like they always will be.
Like they always have been.
Like they always will be