Special

Nothing sinister starts out sober
Sometimes the chemicals work me over
The things you learn at 4AM
When do I become who I am?
Save your blast from the past
This is not a mirage
I’m a stolen car in a parking garage
On your hands and your knees
Do you feel in charge?
Crawling back to who you were

I just wanna feel good
I wanna feel special
Dig down
Underneath the pressure
I wanna fake my pain away
I wanna fake my pain away
I just wanna feel good
I just wanna feel good
And fake my pain

I just wanna feel good, good
I just wanna feel g-

Where does the time go?
Here comes the heavy low
I got two houses and a hungry hungry ego
Hard to make the best of a good thing now
'Cause this town’s too big, too big for the one of me
Sometimes you make friends with the enemy
Am I the one on the throne or a wannabe?
Are you crawling back to who you were?

'Cause I just wanna feel good
I wanna feel special
Dig down
Underneath the pressure
I wanna fake my pain away
I wanna fake my pain away
I just wanna feel good
I just wanna feel good
And fake my pain

I just wanna feel good, good
I just wanna feel good, good

I just wanna wake up
Put a smile on my face
That isn’t made up
Float just like a feather
Or sink just like a stone thrown in a river

I just wanna feel good
I wanna feel special
Dig down
Underneath the pressure
I wanna fake my pain away (fake my pain away)
I wanna fake my pain away
I just wanna feel good

I wanna feel special
When the hell is it gonna get better?
I just wanna feel good
And fake my pain
I just wanna feel good