My Whole Life

Distant from the world
Way I feel inside
Numb from all the pain
I cannot decide
Trapped inside a room
These four walls have eyes
It looks so familiar
Since I was a child

Take me back where I didn't stress a single thing
When we were kids time froze playing on the swings
Could not wait to grow up but it's different now
I've grown up life is tough
Have no one around
Every situation I wanna control it
Maybe that's the reason I can be controlling
Damaged soul seeking for a healing remedy
I don't want pills or advice from therapy

I feel the loneliness sinking in
I'm going down this road again, once again
I only wanna make it right, make it right
I've been this way like my whole life, my whole life
I feel the loneliness sinking in
I'm going down this road again, once again
I only wanna make it right, make it right
I've been this way like my whole life, my whole life

Liars lie
Sinners sin
Tide is high
Sink or swim
My whole life, innocent
Doc's advice medicine
I don't want them pills
I gotta face this shit head on, oh lord
I rather walk alone by myself up this lonely hill

I can't believe it
My thoughts keep winning but I plan to beat it
Won't give up till I kick the can
And shit hits the fan till it stands defeated
My whole God damn life is a chant for Jesus
To get me out this rut and I can achieve it
Manifested, since selling CDs
I took the chance and I had to seize it
But I won't stop on this lonely road
Even when I feeling like a lonely soul
Had a few runs I was almost done
Woud've blown my shit like holy smokes
I was home alone like Macaulay Culkin at my lowest height
But I felt the fight in my soul that night
It was the only plight I been fighting with for like my whole life

I feel the loneliness sinking in
I'm going down this road again, once again
I only wanna make it right, make it right
I've been this way like my whole life, my whole life
I feel the loneliness sinking in
I'm going down this road again, once again
I only wanna make it right, make it right
I've been this way like my whole life, my whole life