12 Weeks

It’s like you always catch me
At just the wrong time
You’re screaming up a storm and I can barely think
There’s never any peace
It’s been a long night
Like every other night for the last 12 weeks

But what’s new?
I’m consumed
Am I the bad guy?
Devil in disguise

(Am I?)
Sometimes I wonder if I died
(The bad guy?)
Would you live better life?
(Devil)
I’d throw myself to all the wolves outside
(In disguise)
If it meant you’d be alright
(Am I)
And when I’m lying in the grave
(The bad guy)
Will my debts be repaid?
(Devil)
All I ever cause is pain, fall in love then fall away
(In disguise)

My head gets hazy when you speak
I’m getting anxious, now
My hands are shaking
I fucking hate this
You’re digging into me
And I can barely take it
A trial on behalf of my uncertainty

I’m consumed, but what’s new?

(Am I?)
Sometimes I wonder if I died
(The bad guy?)
Would you live better life?
(Devil)
I’d throw myself to all the wolves outside
(In disguise)
If it meant you’d be alright
(Am I)
And when I’m lying in the grave
(The bad guy)
Will my debts be repaid?
(Devil)
All I ever cause is pain, fall in love then fall away
(In disguise)

Deliver my wicked guise
Forked tongue behind gentle eyes

(Am I?)
Sometimes I wonder if I died
(The bad guy?)
Would you live better life?
(Devil)
I’d throw myself to all the wolves outside
(In disguise)
If it meant you’d be alright
(Am I)
And when I’m lying in the grave
(The bad guy)
Will my debts be repaid?
(Devil)
All I ever cause is pain, fall in love then fall away
(In disguise)