Surprise

Sometimes I feel like a guilty pleasure
Sometimes it don’t feel like pleasure at all
Face in the air like I’m trying to fool ya
What a surprise I’m just fooling myself

Glued to my phone I’m just trying to hear ya
Sweat on the glass burning holes in my hand
I don’t wanna believe in a new communion
Pour out the wine taste the blood in my breath

Till I go and find out
It’s so easy
Turn and walk away from all the sadness
Even if it feels too hard to handle
I know it’s just a reason to let it fly

Bending my will but the effort is wasted
Hung up and dry just a tool in the shed
Springing the trap cause it’s testing my patience
What a surprise it was all in my head

Going to hell guess they killed me with kindness
Drank all my time now I’m eating the chance
Is a moment of truth such an inconvenience
Peel off the rind bite the fruit in my hands

Till I go and find out
It’s so easy
Turn and walk away from all the sadness
Even if it feels too hard to handle
I know it’s just a reason to let it fly