Change Of Heart

I've been thinking that I wasn't ever ready for this
Another mistake that I can add to the ever-growing list
But I can't help this feeling

Never knowing
But I'm still hoping
I know you pray for a change of heart
But I keep going
But I can't help this feeling

When there's a will then there's a way
Try again, come back another day
Twenty two and nothing new to show for it
I'm out of depth, I'm in too deep
Swallow my words, time to admit defeat
Forcing what I always knew would never fit

A conversation is long overdue
This might mean nothing to you
Just once for crying out loud
Please can you hear me out?
I tried and tried to make things right
So forgive me if I can't forget this overnight

Never knowing
But I'm still hoping
As I keep my faith in a shot in the dark
You watch my life quickly fall apart