In the Middle

My emotions are coming in waves
I go between good and bad days
All we've been through is hard to erase
Will it ever fade? How long will it take?

I hate when our friends
Invite me to the parties out of pity
They ask me how I've been
And the answer's not that pretty

Someday I know this won't be as painful
Someday I'm gonna say God is faithful
But I can't find the words, it's not that simple
Cause I'm right in the middle
I'm right in the middle

I can say all the pretty words
And pretend like it doesn't hurt
Say God is bigger than all of my trials
I know that it's true but it feels like denial

Oh I hate that now
All I have to hold onto are the memories
But every time that I've been found
It was right there in my despair

Someday I know this won't be as painful
Someday I'm gonna say God is faithful
But I can't find the words, it's not that simple
Cause I'm right in the middle
I'm right in the middle
I'm gonna see the meaning of this madness
I'm gonna be the beauty in the ashes
But honestly right now it's not that simple
Cause I'm right in the middle
I'm right in the middle

Middle of the dark, middle of my mess
The other side's not far but my heart's just not there yet
I'll find my way out, but it's okay that now
I'm right in the middle, I'm right in the middle

Someday I know this won't be as painful
Someday I'm gonna say God is faithful
When I can't find the words, it's not that simple
I'm right in the middle
I'm right in the middle
I'm gonna see the meaning of this madness
I'm gonna be the beauty in the ashes
But honestly right now it's not that simple
I'm right in the middle
I'm right in the middle