Thoughts Of $uicide

I don’t wanna live like this anymore
Take a bottle of pills & I’m out on the floor
Too many times And I'll take the blame
So I’m fucked in the head
Put a gun to my brain

Don’t worry about me I’ll be fine
I’ve got thoughts of suicide on my mind
I want it to end
There is no friend
Who gives a shit

Nobody cares until your dead
And even then they all pretend
Pretend to care
They’re not really there
No no no

Last year in March
I was in pain
I wanted to die
Jumped in front of a train

It was only a dream
So when I woke up
Climbed up to the bridge
Tried to throw myself off

I cried for days
I was in pain
I felt selfish
With No one to blame

But myself
I’m always on my own
I’m always alone
And When I get in the zone

I close myself off
Cut people off
Cut em off like I do
Cause if they only knew

What goes on in my head
I’m Better off dead
Like I’ve already said
God I wish I was dead