The Cheapest Thrill

I was a teenager, delusional
With such an awkward build
That's why the first time she sent me a look
I swore she was my world
A week later, got cheated on
A pay-by-hour hotel
I guess she thought that's what my future's worth
A twenty dollar bill

I damn the world, shooting fire from my eyes
But behind them I was burning
Now I'm the lie

I'm the cheapest thrill
I'm the cheapest thrill
And everyone can tell that I'm the cheapest thrill
And I can barely stand myself

Clearly I was crazy
The first to give advice
Played it up like I was noble
But I was feeding my own pride
The lengths I'd go for a fix
Tacky charm got me far
Must have hurt so many feelings
While stabbing my own heart

I damn the world, shooting fire from my eyes
But behind them I was burning
Now I'm the lie

I'm the cheapest thrill
I'm the cheapest thrill
And everyone can tell that I'm the cheapest thrill
And I can barely stand myself

Suddenly I can see through my own eyes again
But I don't like what I'm feeling
You can't help your thoughts
But you can change your actions
If I don't I'll be consumed

Now I'm the cheapest thrill
I'm the cheapest thrill
And everyone can tell that I'm the cheapest thrill
And I can barely stand myself
I know now I'm not going back
I know my own worth now
(And I can barely stand myself)
I know now I'm not going back
I know my own worth now
(And I can barely stand myself)
I know now I'm not going back
I know my own worth now
(I'm the cheapest thrill)
I'm the cheapest thrill