Nobodies

Do you remember being nobodies
Discovering nothing was not that bad
When shared as a pair, both lost and
Long suffering, hiding in a frightening land
And do you remember feeling that anger
Yet so much love and "for what?" you wondered
And now there's no wondering, the wrong
Nervous muttering, no magic left at all

But I remember leaning against a backwards bent wing
And awaking to feel that your touch didn't sting
When everything was wrong, I made so many mistakes
And you helped me make them, but with presence and patience
All those wrong, awful, wild, amazingly childish decisions
I take a breath, and I know I've got to turn the final page
But is our story really done yet? I guess I'm still afraid

But do you remember, just being honest
Little bright moments of peace in the trees
Now it takes so much work to be with you
I'd say that I miss you, but for that you'd have to leave
But I remember once forever seemed too short a time
Though not long enough for me to make up my mind

I would've thought eternity would eventually make me wise
Enough to choose a side, not just linger undecided
Why do I feel changed when we both have stayed the same
It feels like something's different, some ache too big to name
When everything is endless and you're nineteen yet again
And you're never flawed enough but you keep on pretending
Wanting that desperate, "forget me not/do you love me yet?" ending
But there's no ending. There's nobody. Just two nobodies