Only Everyone Can Judge Me

Hive mind is scary
I feel vulnerable and stupid
Waiting for a new embarrassment
To go and tear right through me
A dependent, fruitless animal
Watch me brimming with shame

And this confidence I fake
Only makes matters worse
I am not a stallion, I am just perverse
Hopeless, and docile, and tamed

Another day I won't remember
Another day I wished away
Tedious days punctuated by dismay
Every day feels the same

Oh, it's the routine
And it's the regret
That makes me worse yet

Did I forget your name
Or make a joke and no one laughed?
Did I come across as stupid or did I cum too fast?
This isn't a brave face, this isn't a brave face
This is a mask

Now I remember
It doesn't take much to make me feel small